Here’s a little story about “mess” and “success”…
In 2005 I was sitting in a Brighton café with a friend chatting about life, the universe, etc etc, and I had an unexpected vision of myself working as a Yoga Teacher and Life Coach… whoa… reverse, rewind – where did that come from? I was loving life as a freedom-loving Freelance Journalist, being paid to travel, interview, review and write features.
A few months later, my dear wonderful mother, one of my best friends and allies, passed away unexpectedly and all of a sudden my lifestyle felt frivolous and meaningless. I felt an urgent calling to explore who I really was.
Put simply, it was time for a date with my Spirit/Higher Self.
I set off to India and completed a Yoga Teacher Training intensive. Fast forward to present day and I’ve been teaching and running my Yoga and Wellness business, Karmiyoga, since 2007, while continuing to write about health, wellness, yoga and travel.
But in 2014 another major life event threw me off course. A joyful pregnancy followed by miscarriage completely took the wind out of my sails. The grief of my mother tied into the grief I felt for the child I’d never meet, and for the romantic relationship which under such stress, inevitably broke down.
I felt completely ‘undone’. The experience could have broken me (in my darkest hours, I felt it had) and I could have chosen a journey of self-destruction, pushing all the emotions down to avoid dealing with the pain that seemed never-ending. Instead I bravely looked my pain, despair and depression in the eye, continued to roll out my Yoga mat, practice, teach, and breathe. And learn. And breathe. And go on. And grow from the experience.
It was during this time that the second part of my earlier vision actualised. Through regular sessions with my Life Coach I found that however challenging and awful it seems at the time, there’s always a silver lining. As I went deeper on my inner journey to know and understand myself I was encouraged to undertake Life Coaching training with the Coach Training Centre (a certified course approved by the Coaching Association) and I continued intensive mentoring with my own Life Coach.
I’m sharing my story because a good Coach once said to me; ‘It’s our mess that’s our success’ – and I totally agree with her.
If you’re drawn to explore your values and what’s most important to you, or whatever else is on your mind contact me to book a telephone ‘chemistry call’.